Who's writing your story?

James 1:2-5 (NIV)

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him.

The past few months I have been through a lot of changes in my life. Some changes easy to deal with, others extremely difficult.

One of the hardest things i currently struggle with is patience.

I have never done well with this area of my life. I am always someone who likes to have things set in stone and ready to go.

Lately I've come to realize that I have been tested with patience in every area of my life. Family, friends, relationships, money, jobs, school, you name it, I've had it these past few months.

But, one thing I've come to realize as I have been dealing with this over the past few months is, you can't expect everything in your life to go according  to "your plan".

If I got everything I wanted right exactly when i wanted it, I'd probably be miserable and not no what to do with myself.

I've learned that the things I'm struggling most with are the things that at this moment in time I truly am not ready for. If I got some of the things that I have been wanting for so long now I'd be so lost in what to do because I would feel selfish because I did them in my timing and not God's.

See something I've come to realize is....

God has a timing for everything.

He knew the day I was going to be born and He knows the day I'm going to die.

But, He also knows the things in between then...

What i mean by that is...it's not us who wrote our story. It's God.

He knows when I'm going to be tomorrow.
He knows the day I'm going to fall in love with the person I know I'm going to marry.
He knows how many kids I'll have.
He knows what kind of job I'll have 10 years from now.
Heck, He even knows what color socks I'll be wearing tomorrow.

The reason why He already knows this is because right now at this very moment He is sitting up in Heaven reading my personal story out of my personal book that He wrote about me.

It's not a book that has been sitting on a shelf all dusty and gross because He forgot about it and doesn't care.

It's a book He enjoys picking up everyday and seeing where the next chapter leads every time he turns the page.

It's full of many different stories and He loves picking it up and reading it each day to see where I'm going to go. He should love it because obviously He wrote it.

See the thing is, like I said earlier God already knows everything about my future and He already has the whole thing laid out for me.

But tomorrow when I wake up will I be going by what God already has written in my book or will I change the wording.

Yea it's my life & my story, but God knows what's best for me that's why I put my trust in Him.

If I was running my life I'd get all the things I asked for in my past when I wanted them, which would have lead me down a path where I would probably still be trying to find my way back from.

God is great and He is strong & He has a purpose for everything.

God wrote my book in permanent marker not invisible ink.

He is proud of what He has written & wants to show it off to people.

When I have a good day I see Him sitting there smiling, showing it off to the angels saying "look what she has done today. Isn't she getting so much stronger each day."

& on my bad days I can feel Him weeping with me and holding me in His arms telling me, "Every things going to be alright. Don't give up. You're stronger than you believe."

No matter what I face in life I know that God is with me.

I know He has the pen while writing my book and I'm not taking it out of His hands. Because He knows me better than anyone.

I may be struggling with things right now, but I can hear Gods voice saying,

        "Hey Kimmy, just wait for the next chapter.You're going to love it."

♥